Tuesday, March 21, 2017

Evening Musings

When you find your feelings don't matter,
Look within
When the only problem 'is you',
Look within

If you love someone,  you protect their emotions.  When you won't...
Guess though its me. I care more,  give more than anyone who's ever 'cared about me.
I protect. Nurture. Uplift. Support.
Why do I keep doing it. What's it going to take for me to learn 'love don't love me'.
Friends. Family. Relationship. I'm the one,  the only one willing,  and expected to compromise. I give 'it has to work for us both'. I get 'it works for me,  deal with it'.
These tears that fall I despise.
I should know by now. Should expect nothing different.  But I'm too stubborn to quit,  because I know who I am. I know what I deserve.  So I cling to fading hope that somewhere out there is someone like me,   looking for me.
I work out my own remedy. In time,  it won't hurt any more.
Its easy to forgive but the scars remain.
Too stubborn to quit,  too wounded to keep going
Funny how people make light of what affects you...