No Cure

Stealthily

Encompassing

That is how love takes over the soul

Greedily

Hungrily

It roots on every pleasant experience

Aggressively

Demandingly

It will not be denied

Painfully

Wondrously

It weathers the storms

That there was a switch to turn on and off

Or a knob to turn it higher or lower

Its victims could easily recover from love lost or not returned

But there is no such device

It cannot be controlled

And it burns within spreading without

Consuming its host, it can sustain or devour

Claiming for certain only one heart

It has not proven contagious

A malady for some

A blessing for others

It is seeding inside us all

Blooming at will

Fertilized unknowingly

No way to determine how or when it will bloom

It takes hold of the heart

Battles the mind

A deep hunger inside

Its appetite is specific

Not anyone can feed

But without nourishment it withers and dies

Taking the soul of its host with it along

And there is no cure

And I Waited

When I fell in love with you, I put all my fears aside

I gave you my best

I gave you my all

And I waited

You put me on hold while you searched for another

You hurt me with words

You hurt me with deeds

You thought it was all fun

It’s what you needed to do

Find someone right for you

Someone better than me

And I waited

Your calls became less frequent

The tone of your voice hardened

I asked you to be honest with me

And just tell me the truth

You just toyed with my feelings

And played with my mind

You couldn’t make your mind up

You weren’t sure about me

There might be someone else

Who you’ll find

Someone better than me

Rejected and bereft

I didn’t know what to do

Didn’t know what to think

I watched as they did the exact thing I did that annoyed you so completely

Yet it was ok  with you

Guess  your annoyance with it had only to do with me

With my heart in pieces

My self-esteem crushed

Tears streaming down my face

I prayed it would end

Prayed you wouldn’t matter so much

They built up your ego

Read the same words that I’d read

It does not matter to them though

‘cause they’re doing the same

“I don’t want this LORD, please take this from me” was my prayer

You kept on doing

No thought about me

I cried and I cried

My tears would not stop flowing

Even my sleep offered me no reprieve

My pillow would tell the story in the A.M.

And I waited

Hoping you would see me

Yet knowing you didn’t want to

Praying for your love

You respect and consideration

Hoping you would one day be interested in love

All the while realizing you already were

You just weren’t interested in mine

You called the other day

Not sure how I made it through the short call

It didn’t matter anyway cause someone more important needed your attention

So you hung up the phone with I’ll call you back

Guess life and death depended on it

Cause you forgot I exist

As the tears swelled up in my eyes once again

My heart beat a dull beat

It’s tired of the abuse

It’s tired of the games

I still love you dearly

I’m not trying to replace you

I ‘m just trying not to die

It never mattered before that I loved you

Why should it matter now

I can’t be your friend

I will not offer excuses

I gave you all I am

In return you gave me nothing

I know one day my heart will have healed and someone will come along

Who will love me as I deserve

I pray my heart will not have hardened

And I can give him what you didn’t deserve

But that day is perhaps long off

So here I stand

Waiting