Sometimes you love someone but they won’t love you. You can
give all you have and still it will never be enough. They are able to play with
your feelings as if you’re nothing. Well, that’s because you aren’t- to them.
Even then, when it’s real your heart still won’t ‘release’ them. You can walk
away, but your heart will stay. These people- don’t be too upset with
them-karma never forgets. If you’re able to meet another and they give you what
you need, be grateful. Do not allow your hurt to hurt anyone else. Never
deliberately hurt someone that loves you. If you can’t reciprocate- be man
enough/woman enough to be honest early and upfront. Allow them to make their
own decisions concerning you.
It’s so pathetic, yet funny, how someone so easily ‘sees’
all your faults, but never their own. They are even able to make you feel less
than human with their words and actions. Oh but don’t you dare react- these
people aren’t mature enough to accept the fact that ‘you react to what they say/do’.
It’s not something you’re proud of; it’s not something you may even be able to
control. See, the heart does its own thing- as if it knows a secret. But love
can and does wither and die- if it’s not fed. Just like a bank account- if
there are only withdrawals made and no deposits- it becomes ‘empty’ and another
attempt at withdrawal results in an insufficient funds message. If indeed the
withdrawer is able to get something at that time- there is a penalty- an
overdraft fee. These fees in matters of the heart can be devastating- to the
withdrawer. It’s never wise to play with anyone’s feelings- EVER.
I understand these matters- all too well. See I live them. I
am angry with myself and I hate that I love him. He has shown me again and
again that I’m nothing to him, that he could care less about my feelings. He
can and does so easily continue to drive a knife through my heart. I wonder
just how much more pain my foolish heart is going to allow- before it ‘releases’
him forever? I have no way of knowing, but I know the time can’t be too far
off. I am a loving, caring, sincere woman- and I deserve a loving, caring,
sincere man. But until that day comes, I’ve made up my mind I will love him
from a distance. I’m sure my foolish heart can understand that decision.
